It is now 5:00 P.M. on November 14 and I have not written my November 15 blog for A Slice of Orange. I’ve been staring at my computer screen for two hours. Dinner isn’t started and probably won’t be. I owe a thank you note to a friend but seem to have forgotten where I put the notecards and can’t find the energy to go searching.
Basically, I Got Nothin’.
While that does not technically describe my current state (I do have a cold) I feel like I have nothing to offer on any level: no words of writing wisdom, not mom intelligence, certainly not dinner. Admitting that, I have to ask myself the following question: Is this a bad thing? The answer is: Nope. The reasons are as follows:
- Admitting I got nothin’ is honest. Honesty is always the best policy.
- I Got Nothin’ is an admission that I have actually thought about the problems at hand (in my case a blog entry, the last ten pages of a 400 page book, dinner) and have come up short. There is no shame in coming up short. The shame is in not trying.
- I Got Nothin’ is not an admission of defeat, it is a sigh of relief, a gentle begging off, a request to the universe to pass me by WITH the implied promise that soon I will rally and have something. The universe (and my hungry family) have faith that something will eventually appear.
With this new understanding, I threw in the towel, pulled up a couch pillow and cuddled with the remote control. The day was gone before I knew it. My husband and children didn’t starve – in fact they seemed quite pleased to fend for themselves – my book looks better this morning than it did last night, and, while this blog entry is a little late, I can feel my nothing start to become something. Those quiet hours recharged me. I am now running at a nice idle. Idle, contrary to popular belief, is not doing nothin’. Idle is the purr of a motor just before the engine fires up.
May your days be filled with something but if they aren’t plop on the couch, turn on the T.V., and admit you Got Nothin’. The universe can wait.